Friday, 12 June 2015

Just a thought : Taking control

 Living in the era where one is constantly exposed to new information with or without intention can be useful yet nerve wrecking at the same time. There are the pros and the cons of being subsequently submerged in a sea of information throughout the day.

    Have you ever stopped and realized that you were taking in a catchy song that may have somehow wormed its way into your head from a radio programme. Unbeknownst to you, That song might have lyrics that were meant to degrade people of different sexual preferences or foul language that really shouldn't be coming out of a decent person's mouth. Yet, that song is stuck in your head due to its terrifyingly catchy tune. This also leads to earworms where the songs just gets stuck in your head throughout the whole day while you carry out activities that doesn't require much thought. 

 But those pesky earworms favourite times to mingle around your head is non other than during exam where you're all stressed out. Having it stuck in your head is bad enough, having it drilling foul languages and degrading thoughts in your head is the worse part of it. 

 So choose carefully and take control of what you listen to.

 Personally, I dread songs where females are seen as solely an item of sex rather than of the same class of beings. This brings me to another point, it's because of influences like this that till this day females no matter how educated will still be looked downed as merely a doll mainly for household chores and reproductive uses. 

   Stares, cat calls and disgusting smirks from these type of men more often than not just makes it hard for females today believe whether civilization is actually moving forward or actually back tracking. I wouldn't call myself a feminist for I have done nothing to contribute to that movement, I am but a human being asking for respect among human beings regardless of sex. How hard is it to actually respect another? 

To girls (boys too) , If someone even shows a hint of disrespect and rudeness, don't even bother with them. Just detach yourself from them and remember that 

  "I matter."
  
  That's all you really need. 
                       Don't ever forget that.

 If someone disrespects you in any way, they don't deserve your time. Don't make a fuss about it, just detach and move on. 
    Mingle with civilised people. For when you spend time with people of worth, you become worthy yourself.There's a study that says that you are the average of the people you spend most your time with. I find that quite true.

 So choose carefully and take control of who you spend your time with. 

  Ever been so caught up in a video marathon on youtube whether it be buzzfeed (buzzfeed videos are awesome! ) or cat videos that you lose your sense of time? I've wasted countless hours just watching something that has nothing to do with me on a personal level but appeared on my suggestion box. But of course, Some of these videos (if you're going on a beneficial video marathon) will get you thinking. How kids react to certain things and how the reality is like. I sometimes find myself forcing myself through a video even though it wa boring. (why do I do this to myself...)

  Movies on the other hand are a total different story. The movies we watched while growing up might've caused some of us to be inspired i.e Mulan. But then again, having being used to all the gore and blood in movies and stuff really makes getting stabbed and bleeding a pool of blood seem like nothing. But in reality, It should send chills up our spine even thinking about it. Test yourself, when you imagined a person getting stabbed and being surrounded a pool of his own blood, what went through your head?  I'm presuming that it resembles something like "meh" or "lol"  So how much did movies and dramas affect our perspective? 

So choose wisely the things you let yourself watch.

  Of course after going through all that, there will be inevitable times when you just can't jump out of the car when your mom is driving and perhaps humming to a rap song that unbeknownst to her has something to do with big butts and genitals. Till you get the chance to jump out of the vehicle,

Take control of your thoughts.

Sunday, 7 June 2015

The dilemma

    Dilemma - a situation in which a difficult choice has to be made between two or more alternatives, especially equally undesirable ones

I suppose everyone of us experiences a dilemma from time to time. Like here I am deciding on what to write after such a long time. So I settled with something that has been lurking around in my mind for a while now. 


How does one deal with dilemmas ? Is it a must to pick sides? 


I've learnt that there's no absolute solution but there are solutions that can minimize the risk of the problem to a state that can be handled. So what's the solution here?

You can run but you can't run forever. 

Sooner or later it's either pick a choice or the choice picks you. But then again that will just ruin you, Tony Robbins , a successful life coach and philanthropist said that we all have a power to change our lives. And that is the power of choice. Get the ripped away from you and you are nothing but a slave who is restricted.


There isn't always a win-win solution, So what will you do? 

My best bet for now is have a good cry over it and think it over for a day before making a decision just on the spur of the moment for the sake of getting a solution. Perhaps my perspective and way of handling will change, And I sincerely hope it does do me well in the future when handling dilemmas.

Sunday, 17 May 2015

A crisis and a haircut

 STPM semester is in 2 days. I'm officially in YOLO mode for the past two days after breaking down and cried over how useless I am. Lol. Caught myself thinking about how it's all fine and dandy and I can always retake if I fail...again. Truth to be told I'm probably at the lowest point of my life now, a crisis. No I'm not going through poverty, No I'm not homeless, but I am lifeless. I don't have the drive to live anymore. I've put off so many things that I love , so many new experiences and lifestyles for so long that I don't even know who I am anymore. I've come to realise that I don't know what I like, what I dislike, what I'm good at. I can feel the life being sucked out of me slowly.   I've always thought it was fine the way my life was, till even a hairstylist could describe my whole life with me reluctantly admitting to every single question that confirms that I'm pretty much lifeless. 
I'm 19. I'm stuck at home. Confined by the walls that I've built around myself.So I went for a haircut since.. Idk that's what people do in movies right? Get a haircut after a break up. Except my boyfriend is imaginary and the area around my eyes are speckled with blotches of red ness (covered with make up of course) before I went out for a hair cut. 
 
  The lady in the shop led me to the chair of fortune. No one knows whether you'll walk out worse than before or better. I braced myself and sat down. A woman with brown mushroom hair tended to me and started by bestowing a towel upon my shoulder. She then started lathering my hair with some liquid from a seemingly deceiving ketchup bottle. After staring for a while and realizing that it be awkward if I continued staring through the mirror, I reached for the magazine in front of me and mechanically flipped through it. It felt like such a long time since I had the freedom to read magazines... Till...a man clad with white T and jeans stared on as the lady dried my hair. (Um this is awkward.maybe he'll go away after a while) To my horror, the man took the hairdryer away from her and ordered her away. Then came another dude to dry my rather atrocious hair. (And just got familiar with the lady...gosh.) the dude left and the white shirt guy reached for scissors and ...
 
Your hair is so thick!
Yep.genes. (The usual rants I get from EVERY HAIRSTYLIST IVE GONE TO)
But it's in a rather..terrible state.
Yeah,haven't had the time to tend to it.(Yep.someone just shoot me now)
So what do you want?
Short. How short can I go? Since it's already so Teribble. Might as well chop it off.
But it's such a shame. It's still healthy here and here. It's not that bad.I suggest it longer to frame your face too!
._. Um sure.okay then. Whatever you say.*so after staying quiet for some time he spoke up again*
Don't I look like a local?
Nope.Very Obviously not.
But why? I've managed to blend in quite well.
Your accent gave you away.
Is it that obvious?
Uh huh (trying not to move while he snipped my hair off)
He went quiet for a sec and I couldn't help but ask where he was from.
*laughs* why don't you guess?
Um.. Don't get mad.. Uh Taiwan?
Why would I get mad? Is Taiwan bad?*laughs*
(Shit nonono..) haha just had worse place in my head...like..
China. Im actually from China.
(Yep.china. I dare not say China since quite a few people get offended for being labeled as China Chinese. I don't know why so I didn't take the risk.) 
Oh really?
Yep.*continues raking my hair with a comb*
ah.. That explains. Your accent is very pleasant ( very attractive is what I meant hahaha)
Really?! Wow I have some good points after all.
(Hahaha um yeah.what do I say now. I must be such a weirdo for finding mainland Chinese accent to be dang attractive.)*a moment of silence for being a weirdo*
....
...
..
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 Don't you go out with friends? 
(Um..yeah like totally..how bout that time.wait no..but yeah that time we went..oh wait no..crap.) Not often..
Aren't people your age suppose to be hanging out and stuff?
I guess so..
So you stay at home and study/read?
Um..no..oh well.. Pretty much (read newspaper, articles and stuff)
But you're 19, got a boyfriend?
Nope.
Why not?
Why not indeed. Letting fate do its job.(problematic, commitment, time consuming)
A makeover and a bit of tidying up can do a much better job than fate. I'm sure loads of guys would fawn over you.
Well, I don't need bad fate and attract bad relationships.(My family brainwashed me to refrain from it after getting advise from some feng shui master)
You plan to be single forever?
No. *laughs* if I don't know how to study then I'll just get married (full of sarcasm.i know.But hey, he thought it was funny.)
Well aren't you a good girl.
.... (Just how do I respond god I can't even .. He's right. Shit.) 
Do you drink? (Of course I know he meant alcohol)
Yeah.lol.
Don't learn bad things. (As in don't do drugs etc)
Lol um sure.(now this is going nowhere )
So do you read manga?
Yep.(oh shit I got classified into otakus)
What manga? 
Just some of the popular ones.(Shit do I share any manga? If I admit it aren't I a real life otaku?)
You should take care of yourself more. Invest and have fun :) 

 --convo continues--
 Mostly he ranted on how terrible my hair was and laughed it off. Also gave me a pep talk on HAHAHAHA ...being attractive.

I listened. Regardless of the contents since
1st. His accent was music to my ears. (There's just something about mainland Chinese accent that's so... Rounded? Idk.)
2nd. Free advice. WOO HOO.

Generally felt better after the hair cut. I sincerely deeply appreciate the work he had done on my "teribble hair" and the pep talk. It was overall a pleasant experience. I suppose this is why people get a haircut after some emotional breakdown. It's soothing in some way. The massages and having two people tending to your hair is bliss. 
  Definitely would go back for a hair treatment soon. (Haha so I could maybe hear him talk. Gosh that accent) 
   
   Maybe I shouldn't give up on exams just yet. Maybe I should try my best. And who knows, I might actually get some results. But I guess I'll try and get through exams. Then take the advice and start taking care of myself as a 19 year old, not a grandma with 15 cats at home. 
I promise to dedicate enough time to take care of my body and my soul ..after exams. And perhaps really live after so long. :) 
  And to the hairstylist. Thank you ;)



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