*Before you read this you might want to play along the songs in my playlist.If i removed it in the future and you are still reading this for I dunno what reason,search for it in youtube or something(last carnival/he mele no lilo)The happier one or the sensible one, you choose*
In my opinion, Everyone, everything and whatever it is has a story. Whether a story to be told or a story which will never be known by anyone else except the ones who may be concerned. Look around, Close your eyes, Listen and let your imaginations flow. Sometimes you just gotta let loose to feel the emotions that are whirling up inside you. No plot,settings or characters required and somehow Its a better story than of what william shakespeare has ever written.
Sometimes, I feel like it's a sign and the world around me is telling me it's story using it's own way and it's own time. The looks of a old woman can tell one many things, the marks on tree trunks tells one the tales ,the story behind it that cannot be told but only to be felt... There's a reason why it is here and not anywhere else, A reason why it exists.
All the hard times, happy moments, breakdowns, make ups, obstacles, friends, foes and what not. Merely human , We are given the choice to choose the path of the story. Go along or change it, Its up to you.
I once asked myself, hey, how do you explain a feeling?
Over the years I think I came to a conclusion. What better way to explain a feeling than making the person asking feel the same way as well. Explanation without words but means a million and more, One doesn't just feel sad it self. Emotions and feelings come in a whole package. Sorrow, Insecurities and Happiness could be felt at the same time.
Easier said then done, its hard to make another feel that way without hurting them along the way. My other solution was.. through music. Yes, such a cliche answer but it's true. Music makes you feel ,It has the ability to change what a person feels inside. One can share how they feel through music, a thousand words unsaid but understood.
How do you feel now? Listening to the music , tell me, how did you feel inside before you played it and how do you feel now? Maybe we are feeling the same way =]
Your actions, your life, your story.
It is yours to decide, do you like the story with the tiger or the one without in the story- life of pi? personally I like the one with the tiger , Your choice.
Friday 22 March 2013
Tuesday 19 March 2013
PLan B
what do I wanna do when i graduate? ._.
honestly I have no idea. If I got good results maybe I'll get a scholarship overseas and leave this disgusting country -_- *hate the insecurities.. the hatred and the issues* but which country doesn't have issues? so sure, I'll stay in Malaysia. Love the food ,the people and the culture. But certain people and issues tend to ruin it. wish someday that my country is in good hands ... Anyways, back to me. Umm.. definitely not doing anything related to construction :P
I wanna travel, to learn about all the cultures in the world :D I love culture :) Traditional clothes are so pretty in my opinion. I mean , for an example .. the chinese clothes- cheongsam is such an elegant attire and all those olden day clothes from god knows whatever dynasty are like so pretty . Not only chinese clothes but other clothes from other races also =] Hahaha~ I believed in magic when I was a kid, I loved magic xD Wanted to be a witch too :3 Hence deepens my love for cats since every witch has a cat xD
Well, didn't turn out so good. Maybe I'll be a .. doctor i guess... I'm okay with bio.. Just in case I'm destined to be forever alone, I'll just dive into my career and travel around and do volunteer work since doctors are needed =] Maybe africa or something even though theres a high chance of me getting raped or kidnapped as hostage or for human trafficking but what the hell xp
But I if do settle down and start a family, maybe a clinic ? But I'm kinda bored out, I feel like working in the emergency section~ lolz. Or maybe a .. I dunno.. business?
So if whatever I'll do in the future screws up, MY plan B is to slim down and go work in Disneyland as Fa Mulan. lol. Says majority I look like that disney character that was kind of my idol when I was a kid so sure, why not?
One day I was thinking , If I had a kid and the kid grew up and ran through my old pictures and asked me why do we have pictures of Mulan , lolz.. ._.
me:mommy is Mulan xD
kid: really?? is daddy shang??So Mushu is in the house?? Can I have the lucky cricket? Is that fat uncle next door chien po??? ...
me:... *oh shyt...
hhahah~ juz saying :P
Saturday 2 March 2013
Rants from templar's park :P (continued)
So there's around 2 post I haven't created yet(stuck in my head), basically its pending la :P
But yeah, hahahahaha.Maybe I'LL MIX EVERYTHING HERE :D (or not xP)
Let's start from camp, Ujian Sikap Pengakap Raja is a camp where you go there and there screw you over and look at your reaction. Basically it's how you react to it and your overall attitude.
I thought I can pass with ease as my attitude isn't that bad (i guess )
Anyways, I got assigned to a patrol(meaning group) of people whom I don't know and have to work with to build up our campsite and live with for 3 days and 2 nights. They were enough to make me go mad, For the first day, I was the patrol leader.(Got thrown in front as PL as they were too chicken to do it)
Well, anyways, as it is my duty to take care of the well-ness or my patrol members, the first thing I did after dividing the jobs was to cook. I asked them before hand if they wanted to it, If they agree, I'll cook. They agreed.And so I cooked as I didn't want any of my patrol members to faint or watever.
And so it started fine and dandy , but not for long tho. -.-
Halfway cooking rice, A member came up to me and told me
:"dapur runtuh la~ ,macam mana ni?"
and so as PL, I told her,
:"okay, you stay here and jaga api, i pergi check".
(I think she got the message so I ran towards where our kitchen table stood(barely standing).
(._.) There's around 3 people there and you guys can't make it stand??! okay fine, So i started checking it. All the knots were crap and etc, (need i elaborate any futher? -_-)
And so I started taking everything off, and then rebuilt it. Kudos to my awesome Quartermaster who was one of the people who helped me throughout camp =]
Anyways, as I build, 2 other princesses stood there and just stared. -_-
so halfway done, i looked up to ask the fella guarding the fire how's my rice. The fella..
GONECASE -_- She went to SEE the other members build campsite .. damn i was pissed -_-
Adnd she was like : "kena jaga ke? takleh biarkan ke?"
(BUGGER! It's gonna "chao ta" if you leave it alone ! -_-, and so I named her blurcase.
And so I named her blurcase in my mind. So after TEACHING the princesses how to tie a knot and secure it, I left my quartermaster to fix it since the main structure is already done (mostly by me -_-)
Continued cooking, after I fixed lunch. I took a few quick bites and asked them to eat, the only fella'S who ate was my QM and PQ(a friend of mine from puchong)
They gave me the excuse, :"nanti I makan, I akan muntah laa"
-_- screw this shyt.. and so I named the person who said this- anorexic.Other nicknames came along too eventually, My crappy patrol members consists of anorexic, blurcase, gonecase, MIA, reluctant,PMS and so on. The only thing that kept me going was my QM and my awesome friend PingC.
I can't believe how.. they can just stand there and watch as me and PC build most of the stuff , in the middle of the night. And they can just buat tak tau and sleep, later on wake up the morning and ask, :"design baru ke??
They UNINTENTIONALLY took my expensive pocket knife, my logbook and my rope for exam uses -_- Got most of the stuff back after checking everywhere and asking everyone. Anorexic accused me of taking her stove, and said she wanted to check whether i took her "new" stove or not.
me: (._.) , sure, go ahead. But mine got label my troop number wan, don't think I took yours"
her: "alahhh, Kat bekas je ada nama "
me: (-_-) (super pissed now,You wanna check you just check la bugger -_-)
she opens the stove box, name clearly labeled by the side. I stare at her as she reluctantly closes it and went to bug PingC. to check her stove.
What's more, she checked mine twice and still wasn't convinced.
Thats so... IRRITATING -_- URGHHHHH
Survived somehow, I ate with my dear friends whom I adore from Petaling district. :3
what's more, I don't have to cook much xD Just went over, sits down, takes mestin, eats without shame xD the feeling damn bahagia xD
shout out to petaling scouts : THANKIEW YOU, AWESOME PEOPLE FOR BEING THERE!!
these meal breaks is where I sit down and have mental breakdown (laughing and crying at the same time) , I really needed this a lot =]
Lol, made myself "fly lice" for my first dinner since i had so much leftovers thanks to those bugger patrol members excluding my QM and PingC.
My patrol members are the type of people who:-
1.Stand there and buat bodoh je.
2.Asks you to help out even though you obviously have blood dripping from you hand to your arm.
3.Does stuff and expects you to help them, If you don't they stare at you like u sumthing wong.
4.Has the balls to ask you for help even though they did nothing and is too shy to ask guys for stuff.
5.Sleep while you stay awake and fix the campsite.
6.Keeps changing ideas.(not very good ones too)
7.Doesn't know their kawad tongkat very well.
8.Doesn't even know general protocol.
9.Rely on there pemimpin too much.(pemimpin=scouter)
10.Are princesses -_-
I can go on listing out for the next couple of hours but yeah, you get the picture. When they panicked last minute for campsite, they had the balls to ask me to fix it even tho i stayed up all night fixing it. I just stared at the person in the eye(pokerface), :"you try la" ,continued drawing the map from expedition in jungle. The person prolly understood it, If i were to help them , one of them had to do the map. And obviously for people who don't even know how a compass works, drawing a map is impossible. Dou you people have any bloody idea how friggin hard it is to take the bearing in a jungle while climbing a slope with a parasite sucking your foot? of course you dont -_-
Credits to Dad, PingC, 131th petaling king scout candidates , Scouter(Shang) and all the scouts and scouters from petaling district. Without you guys, I would've break down and cried on the spot. (I'm serious, I literally wake up and feel like crying everyday during camp.)
And that concludes my ranting xp
But yeah, hahahahaha.Maybe I'LL MIX EVERYTHING HERE :D (or not xP)
Let's start from camp, Ujian Sikap Pengakap Raja is a camp where you go there and there screw you over and look at your reaction. Basically it's how you react to it and your overall attitude.
I thought I can pass with ease as my attitude isn't that bad (i guess )
Anyways, I got assigned to a patrol(meaning group) of people whom I don't know and have to work with to build up our campsite and live with for 3 days and 2 nights. They were enough to make me go mad, For the first day, I was the patrol leader.(Got thrown in front as PL as they were too chicken to do it)
Well, anyways, as it is my duty to take care of the well-ness or my patrol members, the first thing I did after dividing the jobs was to cook. I asked them before hand if they wanted to it, If they agree, I'll cook. They agreed.And so I cooked as I didn't want any of my patrol members to faint or watever.
And so it started fine and dandy , but not for long tho. -.-
Halfway cooking rice, A member came up to me and told me
:"dapur runtuh la~ ,macam mana ni?"
and so as PL, I told her,
:"okay, you stay here and jaga api, i pergi check".
(I think she got the message so I ran towards where our kitchen table stood(barely standing).
(._.) There's around 3 people there and you guys can't make it stand??! okay fine, So i started checking it. All the knots were crap and etc, (need i elaborate any futher? -_-)
And so I started taking everything off, and then rebuilt it. Kudos to my awesome Quartermaster who was one of the people who helped me throughout camp =]
Anyways, as I build, 2 other princesses stood there and just stared. -_-
so halfway done, i looked up to ask the fella guarding the fire how's my rice. The fella..
GONECASE -_- She went to SEE the other members build campsite .. damn i was pissed -_-
Adnd she was like : "kena jaga ke? takleh biarkan ke?"
(BUGGER! It's gonna "chao ta" if you leave it alone ! -_-, and so I named her blurcase.
And so I named her blurcase in my mind. So after TEACHING the princesses how to tie a knot and secure it, I left my quartermaster to fix it since the main structure is already done (mostly by me -_-)
Continued cooking, after I fixed lunch. I took a few quick bites and asked them to eat, the only fella'S who ate was my QM and PQ(a friend of mine from puchong)
They gave me the excuse, :"nanti I makan, I akan muntah laa"
-_- screw this shyt.. and so I named the person who said this- anorexic.Other nicknames came along too eventually, My crappy patrol members consists of anorexic, blurcase, gonecase, MIA, reluctant,PMS and so on. The only thing that kept me going was my QM and my awesome friend PingC.
I can't believe how.. they can just stand there and watch as me and PC build most of the stuff , in the middle of the night. And they can just buat tak tau and sleep, later on wake up the morning and ask, :"design baru ke??
They UNINTENTIONALLY took my expensive pocket knife, my logbook and my rope for exam uses -_- Got most of the stuff back after checking everywhere and asking everyone. Anorexic accused me of taking her stove, and said she wanted to check whether i took her "new" stove or not.
me: (._.) , sure, go ahead. But mine got label my troop number wan, don't think I took yours"
her: "alahhh, Kat bekas je ada nama "
me: (-_-) (super pissed now,You wanna check you just check la bugger -_-)
she opens the stove box, name clearly labeled by the side. I stare at her as she reluctantly closes it and went to bug PingC. to check her stove.
What's more, she checked mine twice and still wasn't convinced.
Thats so... IRRITATING -_- URGHHHHH
Survived somehow, I ate with my dear friends whom I adore from Petaling district. :3
what's more, I don't have to cook much xD Just went over, sits down, takes mestin, eats without shame xD the feeling damn bahagia xD
shout out to petaling scouts : THANKIEW YOU, AWESOME PEOPLE FOR BEING THERE!!
these meal breaks is where I sit down and have mental breakdown (laughing and crying at the same time) , I really needed this a lot =]
Lol, made myself "fly lice" for my first dinner since i had so much leftovers thanks to those bugger patrol members excluding my QM and PingC.
My patrol members are the type of people who:-
1.Stand there and buat bodoh je.
2.Asks you to help out even though you obviously have blood dripping from you hand to your arm.
3.Does stuff and expects you to help them, If you don't they stare at you like u sumthing wong.
4.Has the balls to ask you for help even though they did nothing and is too shy to ask guys for stuff.
5.Sleep while you stay awake and fix the campsite.
6.Keeps changing ideas.(not very good ones too)
7.Doesn't know their kawad tongkat very well.
8.Doesn't even know general protocol.
9.Rely on there pemimpin too much.(pemimpin=scouter)
10.Are princesses -_-
I can go on listing out for the next couple of hours but yeah, you get the picture. When they panicked last minute for campsite, they had the balls to ask me to fix it even tho i stayed up all night fixing it. I just stared at the person in the eye(pokerface), :"you try la" ,continued drawing the map from expedition in jungle. The person prolly understood it, If i were to help them , one of them had to do the map. And obviously for people who don't even know how a compass works, drawing a map is impossible. Dou you people have any bloody idea how friggin hard it is to take the bearing in a jungle while climbing a slope with a parasite sucking your foot? of course you dont -_-
Credits to Dad, PingC, 131th petaling king scout candidates , Scouter(Shang) and all the scouts and scouters from petaling district. Without you guys, I would've break down and cried on the spot. (I'm serious, I literally wake up and feel like crying everyday during camp.)
And that concludes my ranting xp
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